Wednesday, August 1, 2007

I was almost happy again...


There is a certain macabre pleasure in languishing in your own private den of misery. One's id tends to stoke the fires of self-pity and encourages the feelings of "poor me" within. It is a twisted proposition of the inability to be happy unless one is unhappy.

Is it selfish to dwell on one's petty problems? To delve into the minutiae and cling onto every little bit of resentment felt, conceived or otherwise? Given the greater issues of the world at stake, are we perhaps a bit too self-indulgent in thinking only of the self and the now?

If you were the one allowed to issue the choices, then, perhaps you would be better in control. But if you were on the other end of the short stick, and been issued the choice... then perhaps you're not quite as well off as you wish you could be.

A little drama to spice up a mundane life: It's all a tangled web of confusion, uncertainty and yet, that tiny bit of excitement and anticipation is enough to keep you going back for more. Unconsciously, you allow yourself to fall into a vicious cycle.

Till it all unravels...

When it happens, do you play the cinematic “hero” and drink till you forget or will you accept that it is ok to be content with an unassuming life?

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

First customer here... *blushed*

eStee said...

welcome my dear! *hugs*